Category: main works
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The Final Days – how I prepare for the death of my hospice care animals

As a canine hospice caregiver, and someone who has a life-limiting illness, death is something I have had to become intimately acquainted with. It is a part of me, and a part of the work I do. The intention of canine hospice care is not necessarily to prolong the life of those I care for,…
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Solidarity across species lines – when disabled animals and handlers work together

“…I think a lot of folks make the assumption that disabled and chronically ill people, who are often in the position of requiring care, would not make good caregivers themselves. This isn’t necessarily true. Like any other generalization, this blankets over all variants and complexities that make up the reality of our collective experiences.”
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In defense of “un-joyful” movement, and the demoralization of “personal choice” : (part 1)

When a doctor decides to talk about my weight, exercise, or diet, I know I have to remain aware that systemic, medicalized fatphobia will likely impact even the most self-aware doctor out there. This fact made me extremely aversive to trusting and following any advice I was given about my weight and adjacent factors. I…
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Canine compassion and consent – understanding and respecting our animal’s “no”.

…We have extremely high expectations of our dogs, and even higher expectations for working animals. We train them to tolerate anything and everything. For a service animal, it is essential to be able to prioritize their handlers’ needs over their own, and I have seen many service animals in training “wash out”, or be unable…
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This morning, I thought about ending my life. Here is what I did about it:

Trying to regulate my breathing made me feel like I was suffocating. “Mindfulness” felt like a mockery of my cultural and spiritual upbringing. Trying to be “present in my body” made me hyper aware of the pain I felt and the dysfunction within. I felt more shame and panic. Why wasn’t this working? Am I…