Tag: trauma
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Experiments in paper making, musings on failure and “waste”.

Experiments in paper making! I really love finding new ways to preserve and enjoy the flowers I grow in my garden. I think in general, over the last few years, I’ve been able to do a lot of reparative work regarding the trauma I experienced in my home environment and within the education system. School…
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Kumquat marmalade for dad

Made this for my dad! Kumquat marmalade with earl grey, reduced sugar, natural pectin from the seeds, sliced delicately so u can see the pretty little fruit slices, and spiked with orange bitters and amoretti. 2 day process! And added edible gold glitter and stars for fun lol. – My dad and I have always…
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This morning, I thought about ending my life. Here is what I did about it:

Trying to regulate my breathing made me feel like I was suffocating. “Mindfulness” felt like a mockery of my cultural and spiritual upbringing. Trying to be “present in my body” made me hyper aware of the pain I felt and the dysfunction within. I felt more shame and panic. Why wasn’t this working? Am I…